There are days on which I know I've dressed well, put my make up on smoothly; I just feel confident. These are the days on which I see heads turn and it feels good. It feels great. No, amazing in fact. Perhaps I'm an attention seeker, or perhaps I just want what most girls want. To feel beautiful.
Other days I realize that I'm not in a relationship and nobody has asked me out it quite a bit of time. I'm not the time of girl that needs a guy to be happy. I'm a confident independent woman. However I do feel at times that my quirky, bubbly and sometimes weird nature is a turn off to all the guys that I'm attracted to. The guys that are attracted to me, I'm just not vice versa. When I'm smiling people are always so nice to me! I smile, and people usually smile back. Another curse. When I'm sitting on my own, anywhere, I may be thinking about nothing in particular, just not smiling. I have a poker face so to speak. No expression in particular on my face. This is when people think I'm a bitch. I either smile and be loved or just relax and be sent death stares. What!? Why!
I don't like to display my weaknesses but here I'll admit that I'm self conscious. About so many things. My body image is more important to me that I would like it to be.
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